Hello readers. You know I love you right?!
So I want to let you know I am taking a rest....a sabbatical more like. I had a bit of a mini breakdown this past Sunday where I struggled with remembering why I need to keep going, keep being positive, keep smiling, keep moving up, and keep moving forward. I won't say it's depression, although, I have never faced that demon before. Right now, I think I just need to relax and reorganize my thinking, my every day tasks, and my social escapades. But, go ahead and continue reading through all my posts! I will still be responding to emails and comments!
Dress: Upscale Boutique (Woodlands, TX)
Coat: Forever21 SOLD OUT
Bag: Robert Graham SOLD OUT
*I love these shoes so much that I purchased 3 more of the exact same style and color.
You can never go wrong with a basic nude pump!
I've admitted to a few people that I am becoming very comfortable with being a "Table for 1".
This is not because I don't like being around people, it's because I have realized that people (men) do not fully accept me, my process. Let me explain....
The men I have met do enjoy me and enjoy my company. They entertain my dialogue, we joke we laugh, we have a good time, and when I tell them about my goals, they give me all praises...until... we discuss relationships or they made the decision to consider me to be a girlfriend instead of having me be a genuine, caring, and supportive friend. Yes, I am a much better friend than a partner right now and that will change once I achieve a few more steps but, right now....NO.
And, I always say that it's the men who start the relationship, so I give these men the applause for approaching me with their thoughts! I understand that we all need companionship and no one should ever be too busy to have someone to enjoy life with BUT, I need to get some shit done first...BY MY DAMN SELF! There are certain achievements I WANT TO DO ALONE.
I don't mind spending time with someone and taking a moment to breathe but, when that time is up, I need to get back to business. Yes, I'd love to have someone by my side to support me and cheer me on but, I'm still going to continue my plan without a personal cheerleader. Plus, I just don't want a cheerleader, I want a leader who I can admire and motivate me to be even greater. I also don't want to start a relationship and only be able to bring half of what he is able to bring to the table. I want to be able to call him and say, "Hey baby, I know we've been working a lot and we've not had much time for each other, so I booked us a trip to Fiji!" A man deserves to be spoiled too, especially a good man and I'm already the type of person to put a lot of thought in the gifts I give. I want to live the life I want and be able to enjoy the fruits of my labor, I want my partner to have the same focus. So when I do reach a point when it's time for me to give my heart to someone, we both will be blessed.
Why is it such a conundrum for some men to accept a women who can provide handsomely for herself and her family? Or accept that a woman is honest about not being ready for a relationship? When I do come across people like this or when a man reveals his true thoughts on how a woman needs to be, I automatically shut off my emotions (or what little I expose) and rethink my communication with a man. I recently had to stop all communication with someone because every time we spoke, he would only wanted to talk about a relationship and because he did not understand why I wasn't open to the idea, he began to make assumptions of me...I don't like that, AT ALL!... I've learned to block out what will not be conducive to my growth and success.
Some people have said, "It will take the right man to make you think differently and see that you need him now and not later." ...and they are absolutely correct.