Be You + I Can't
Your uniqueness is what makes you...You. Why try to duplicate someone else's persona?
We can admire but, never emulate.
As much as I like to be "pretty" and presentable, I have no issues being my natural self. I admire women who carry themselves with class and dignity; I translate that admiration through my own style but, I never duplicate someone else's image. I like who I am. I say inappropriate things, I make lewd comments, I eat like a man, I burp out loud...but for the most part, it's all in fun and I still maintain a level of grace. Anyone who has gotten to know me is well aware of my "special" character.
I can't, I just can't.
Why do we support these types of thoughts? This is not conducive to those who aspire to have a healthy and faithful marriage or relationship. Every time I log onto Facebook or Instagram, I constantly see memes about "sidechicks" or "Having a wife and a girlfriend". Is this what I have to look forward to? The same scenario I came out of? The sad part is, many men honor this and some women are actually OKAY with these types of arrangements! I do not ever want someone else's husband or potential husband and I never again want to have a relationship where there is another woman sitting on the sideline waiting for him to leave me or for me to leave him. I refuse to subject myself to that life again. I have become so much more and identified what I definitely do not want in my next relationship.
As many defenses as I have against relationship and men. I still want to be married to one but, I don't want my marriage to come with these types of conditions.
I still can't.