Handle With Care
Do you ever have moments when you ask yourself "Why?"
-Why are you working so hard?
-Why do you want this so much?
-Why do you care?
-Why do you smile when you really want to scream?
-Why do you answer "Everything is okay" when it's not?
These moments of questioning is a process of self reflection. You argue with yourself because you are exhausted and almost depleted to the point of What is the point? But, just remember, if you stop now, everything that you worked for would have been for nothing and who else is going to pick up your slack for YOU?
You can reach out to friends and family, you can vent, you can lock yourself away but, YOU still have to get your shit done. Go ahead and cry yourself a river, pour you a glass of wine, soak in the tub, and let it all out. Then dry yourself off, get some sleep, and start a new day.
These moments are a bit harder for those who are single because you are ideally by yourself and going through this process alone is an ordeal but, those who have a partner also have a role, an expectation, to do their part. A relationship is work, yet the two of you should be able to pull each other through any personal turmoil.
I've always said, I don't want to be a "housewife" and my future husband will have to understand that everything I am working for now, I am bringing into the marriage. So we are definitely going to be two working people with our own drive to succeed. And if he's had a hard day at work, I want to make him feel better. If I've had some problems in the office, I'd like him to ease my headache. But, even with this topic, I tend to ask myself...
-Am I living in a manner that will make me a good wife?
-Am I practicing ideals that would make a man proud to have me?
-Is my wall really necessary?
-Is keeping myself hidden away conducive?
-Should I continue to "wait"?
It's all frustrating and overwhelming but, you still have to handle yourself with care and remind yourself why you are doing what you are doing and what your end goal is. If you need to take a break, do so, and come back refreshed and ready to hit the ground running. The point is to become Stronger.
I wore this look on the day the Eagles played the Steelers but, before the game, I attended church and a brunch, so I had to be a lady, although, I still was not above talking trash!
Right now, the Birds are 3-0. So guess who's a happy girl...